Sometimes when I am in my office
writing I play New Age, quietly. If the music is too beautiful it is
distracting so I keep it low, just to fill the void of thought which seems to
hover around me when I’m searching. And sometimes the music is just loud enough
to negate the constant ticking of the dollar three-ninety-nothing clock which
metronomes my time in this place. Occasionally that clock can be an annoying constant
heartbeat but often I find it comforting.
Tonight, for a special few
minutes, the clock and the music were in perfect synchronization.
For a moment I wondered why the
clock was making music and then I realized it was its own little percussion
section up there on top of the file cabinet. Deuter’s, East of the Full Moon’s, Vibrant Dust was playing quietly, its beat
matching the per-second heartbeat of the small clock. If the music had been
turned up only slightly I would not have noticed the addition to the orchestra.
When I realized how the two machines
were in rhythm I stopped writing and listened, really listened and felt, really
felt, how, at that moment, all three of us were conjoined. Eyes closed, I
swayed, my breathing split the beat, the ticking, the music, my own sense of
life force, I felt blessed to be presented with such a moment to ponder.
It gave me pause. In those scant
few seconds I was reminded that sometimes, just sometimes, everything drifts
into place seamlessly. And it is up to us to notice when our windshield wipers
conduct the band and our clocks accompany the orchestra. It is up to us to
notice when the beat within us complements life.
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